I am officially 21! I love my 21st birthday. I got to be a princess for 3 days! Thank god Alhamdulillah Syukur for such a wonderful friends. God knows how much I love them dearly. <3 

Recently I decided to wear tudung to cover my hair properly. In other words, I was ready to wear the hijab. It was a big change for me as I was known as the free hair girl before. 

I got so many reactions from my friends, cousins, friends of friends, and etc..

Some of them were shocked, some even laughed at me. They freaking laughed at me. I’ve been asked by so many people with questions such as “Seriously?” “but why?” “what makes you decide to wear one?” “For real?”. Funny thing is, someone thought I did it because it’s the “in” thing, and I did it because I wanted something. Some called me “Ustazah”, some asked me to sing the nasyid song. 

What is wrong with them? How shallow..

Let me get this straight, honest, clean and clear. 

I decided to cover up because I wanted to, right after my friend told me this. 

“Kalau kau tak pakai tudung, bukan kau je yang berdosa, your dad and your brother pon berdosa sebab diorang should guide you, but they failed”

Of course I don’t want my dad to bear with the sin of my mistakes, right? That’s reason number 1. 

I thought I should give it a try, to cover up the right way. Reason number 2.

I hope something good will come in my way. Reason number 3.

It’s a must. And I did it sincerely from my heart. Reason number 4.

I’m not going to lie, it was hard at first. Every time when I think about giving up, I would tell myself that it’s not easy for someone to get such beautiful hidayah, and I’m never going to let it go to waste. 

That effort you have to like the things that I like, to understand my hobby, and to love what I love, is amazing. 

I love the way you keep up with me. And most importantly, I love it that you always know how to figure me out. 

Keep on laughing. At least I’m moving forward, and you are still at the back.

Lets see how long can you laugh. Probably not long enough.

I guess promises are made to be broken. I rarely make promises, because to me promises are forever. 

But sadly, some people still do not understand the real meaning of it. Twisted words and fake promises, it is all just a game. 

pfffft. 

It’s funny to think about how we met again, well more like bumping into each other again.

At the same place, in a different year. 

There you go again, making me laugh so effortlessly.